P.S. A lot of people with depression and other mental illnesses have trouble making decisions or choosing from a bunch of different options. “Wanna get dinner at that pizza place on Tuesday night?” is a LOT easier to answer than “So wanna hang out sometime? What do you want to do?”
So much this…
When I’m at my worst, just being invited to drive with you while you run errands is often enough to keep me from doing a complete downward spiral, but please don’t guilt people for not being able to hang out… It’s the worst feeling of shame for having depression in the first place on top of worrying that you will lose those you love for being a shitty friend.
They came and their practice did not involve being outside in the sun where you begin to feel better. There was no music or drumming to get your blood flowing again. There was no sense that everyone had taken the day off so that the entire community could come together to try to lift you up and bring you back to joy. There was no acknowledgement of the depression as something invasive and external that could actually be cast out again.
Instead they would take people one at a time into these dingy little rooms and have them sit around for an hour or so and talk about bad things that had happened to them. We had to ask them to leave."
The Foundry - Gravenhurst
if you let them burn books you’ll let them burn bodies
the man with the match could be anybody
a uniform changes something inside
holding a gun makes you feel so alive
and everyone else is doing it too
and you won’t know when evil comes
evil looks just like anyone
i blame anyone but me
I Can’t Escape Myself - The Sound
Swing it Low - Morphine
you have my loyalty yes
I need to walk you down the street
I’m right here,
I’ll watch your back
In case the wind blows off your hat
you’re on time,
your eyes, are like a diamond mine
Deep, and bright inside